Personal Growth (ver. XRCO)

After cooling off and moving on in life, I've decided to try to find out who I really am in life. I like to see people, talk with them, be good and less good whenever I want, and I feel that I get to know more about myself, what I really want in life and what I look in the people around me. I've met some cool new people I wouldn't have been able to meet while in a serious relationship, and I've bonded with old friends as well, with less pressure being exerted on me. Not saying that I was given pressure by my ex-partner but rather something I gave to myself, because I did realise that sometimes I'm too nice to the people and they would misunderstand. Coming along to this thought, however, I did think about my ex again (I'm trying my hardest not to.. It's getting easier now). Things that should have come up as red flags during the relationship which I made excuses for. Things that we should have talked over. Things I did wrong. Things she did wrong. As I...

It's officially Winter in Sydney today. I was watching a musician's audition show today, when someone started playing a cover of Coldplay's 'Everglow'. The singer sang the chorus:   "Oh when I'm cold, coooold,     Oh when I'm cold, cold... " I got the chills and started to think of the weather chills we got recently. About how it came earlier than expected. I started to wonder why. It may have been caused by climate change. It might not have been anything special. To my sentimental current self, it felt as if it was due to the fires, the candles of love we once had had both been snuffed out, with not even the ashes remaining. The moment after a fire dies, You feel the lack of heat the most. Perhaps, that's why this winter feels colder than it may have been. Hopefully, one day, we can give each other warmth, through friendship and kindness. I need to look for warmth within myself now.