Holding in my emotions

I'm usually good at holding in my emotions in the deepest parts of my heart and showing people what they want to see, except in front a very select few people.

Today was unusually not one of those days, and I burst into singing and music at home - came home, chilled for a bit then decided to Google Cast my YouTube Music onto the TV to karaoke off it all night.

Songs sung:
O Fly On by Coldplay
Everglow by Coldplay
Lie by NF
Let you down by NF
Shallow by Lady Gaga, Bradley Cooper
Hey, Soul Sister by Train
Juicy by Notorious B.I.G.
Titanium by David Guetta, Sia
Creep by Radiohead
Man Like You by Tom Misch
It Runs Through Me by Tom Misch
Come Out and Play by Billie Eillish
Location Unknown by HONNE
Until Morning by James Vickery
Best Part by Daniel Caeser
Love by DEAN
Mercy by Jacob Banks
April by Alxndr London

This list is just during the after work karaoke sesh. During the day, I was much more stuck on Chris Tomlin's 'Good Good Father' and 'Is He Worthy?'.

Maybe I was able to enjoy my evening karaoke because of how much I was at peace inside, having trusted my worries and anxiety to God. I'm not saying that I'm completely free from it, but rather that I must keep my guard up protect my heart from wavering and having doubts in the mysterious ways which God works and blesses us in.

Pre-sleep prayer - Thank you Lord for giving me protection and taking my worries away, and for allowing me to be put through trials, so that I may succeed and if I lose, I may learn from it.

Lord, please keep my heart strong and mind clear. I wish to be of use to you,  and thus, ready to move upon the slightest inspiration/motivation.

In Jesus, my saviour and Lord's name, I pray,

Amen.

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